Monday, September 27, 2010
Closure
These last two weeks of my life have been ridiculous, I've hit both my ultimate low and high. Been a while since I've been happy and it looks like it'll remain that way. What they say is true, in life you never really get what you want and I am far from getting anything I want. I felt like I was close but reality gave me a nice slap in the face a few days ago. So far I'm just trying to come to terms with where I'm at in life and plot a way for me to achieve my aspirations. I realize I can't depend on others to help me out of make me feel different. I have to depend on myself because no one has my back like I do. I've just been trying to numb the pain for a while now but it's time to face the bull by the horns and take life head on. I'm tired to sulking in the shadows, I need some limelight. I need to come to terms with who I am as a person because I don't even know that answer. I just need closure before I truly put myself to sleep for eternity.
Saturday, September 25, 2010
Sunday, September 19, 2010
Relationship Building
It's been a while since I've checked in with you anonymous readers but I've been taking care of a lot of business. The summer was very promising but came with a lot of trials and obstacles. A lot of things happen that I did not like but I can't control everything so I accepted things for the way they are. As of now I am focusing on my future success and trying to build stronger relationships with the people in my life. Easier said than done because there is on relationship that I love and cherish but I'm at wits end with how to handle what's been going on as of late. I just want everyone to be happy but that's hard to do when someone swallows their emotions and hides their true thoughts from you. I've never really been one to hide what was on my mind unless I knew someone wouldn't accept what I proposed to say. It hurts someone you love to tell you to give them space but I try to honor their wishes, what messes me up is they want the space but do everything in their power to keep in touch. So all they tend to do is contradict their plans. I just want closure and happiness, I hate being strung along. I know what the outcomes of the situation are and I don't want to lose out on a true friend, I really just want things to work with no hiccups. Only God knows the way
Thursday, September 9, 2010
LASC
So far the semester is coming along great but I went to the counselor yesterday and heard some very disappointing news. I've never been on such a backwards school to where you had to back track in math in order to get to the math that you belong in. Why would I take algebra again when I am an eligible math tutor that places in Calculus. Is it a plan just to keep students here longer, if so I'm not falling for the okie doke
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